A bit of a ramble of thoughts today…
God has a special purpose, a special love, a special providence for all those he has created. God cares for each of us individually, watches over us, provides for us. The circumstances of each day of our lives, of every moment of every day, are provided for us by him. [This] means that every moment of our life has a purpose, that every action of ours, no matter how dull or routine or trivial it may seem in itself, has a dignity and worth beyond human understanding. No man’s life is insignificant in God’s sight. – Fr. Walter Ciszek, S.J.
Everyone has a vocation.
Every single person was created by God with an intention that precedes creation itself. Regardless of the circumstances of one’s conception or of one’s parents’ reception/rejection of your coming-to-be, God unconditionally willed that each person exist. As Pope Benedict XVI said it, “Each of us is the result of a thought of God. Each of us is willed. Each of us is loved. Each of us is necessary.” And that intention, will, thought, love and necessity continues in every subsequent moment of life into eternity. Our first vocation is to be “called into existence,” by God’s eternal decree, as human be-ings. Your first vocation is to receive existence, to receive God’s desire that you exist, and thereby receive His inscrutable love.
Revel and rejoice in that gift! If you begin and remain there, every other sense of vocation in life will be an overflow and never seem a burden.
Every other meaning of vocation flows from this first. It grounds our dignity not in what we can or cannot do, or in what we do or do not do, but in who we are. Pre-born and newborn babies, in their fragility and helplessness, are radical signs to us of this inviolable dignity that under-girds and supersedes our evolving ability to actualize various gifts, to care for ourselves and others, or to contribute to the good of humanity. Babies are screaming sacraments of the gratuitousness of existence, are the voice of God crying out, “Worthy, because loved!”
To love and care for children from the moment they come into existence in the womb — or to love any who are fragile or helpless — is to confess and express radical gratitude for our own unsolicited creation. Any good I do for others, any love or mercy or kindness I show them, is simply a just act of thanksgiving to God; an imitation of His lavish generosity in loving me into existence at every moment. My every vocational response, then, flows from this first act of gratitude. I write, love, teach, remain faithful, encourage, suffer and do all things to make of my life thanksgiving.
The Holy Eucharist, the thanksgiving of God and man — ! — makes present to us the God who gave His life away to us first by giving us life, and then by redeeming the life we wantonly threw away. In the Eucharist, God makes present to us our terrifying ingratitude as we savagely “put to death the Author of Life” (Acts 3:15). And in the Eucharist, when the words of a broken body and bloodshed are spoken over bread and wine, I tremble knowing they are spoken about me, with intention, by the “Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me” (Gal. 2:20). Who loved me, gave Himself for me. The Son is grateful to the Father in the Mass for handing Him over into our hands so that He might bring us back to life again with Him to share His supernal joy. The Father is grateful to the Son for saying Yes to this mission of love, and the Spirit is the exchange of thanksgiving between Father and Son (Luke 10:21).
St. Thomas Aquinas, when he was 5 years old, asked his teacher, “What is God?” Today I conclude, God is thanksgiving.
Is Eucharist, which just happens to be the supreme nexus of God and creation in the universe.
And thanksgiving’s source and summit, its taproot and sweetest fruit, is love.
“The sacrament of charity, the Holy Eucharist is the gift that Jesus Christ makes of himself, thus revealing to us God’s infinite love for every man and woman.” — Pope Benedict XVI
“Theos agapē estin.” — 1 John 4:8
So my real vocation is to gratefully place all that I am and have in the service of the God-Neighbor, Jesus Christ, which is another way of saying that my vocation is to love God by loving our neighbor and to love neighbor by loving God. Everything else is a secondary detail. Those who fret over their vocations to this or that way of life, this or that career, this or that location, this or that person, etc. need to transfer their angst-energy from those secondary specifics to the primary wholehearted commitment to “love in place” in the most radical way possible. If you strive to be faithful to loving in place, with the people and circumstances and health and opportunities and challenges you have right now and right here, the path ahead as to where God is leading you to expend yourself most fittingly will peacefully come. And whatever that is will, or at least should not, look any different from what you are already doing right now.
The only path to fidelity to God in the future is fidelity to God in the present.
So, simply share with God right now, in gratitude, your desire to do His will in all things. Then relax, do what you do well, trusting Him in the present to unfold your future with you. Remember what Bl. John Henry Newman said,
I have my mission – I may never know it in this life, but I shall be told it in the next. Whatever, wherever I am I can never be thrown away. If I am in sickness, my sickness may serve Him; in perplexity, my perplexity may serve Him; if I am in sorrow, my sorrow may serve Him. He does nothing in vain. He knows what he is about. He may take away my friends, He may throw me among strangers, He may make me feel desolate, make my spirits sink, hide my future from me – still He knows what He is about. Therefore I will trust Him.
So bloody relax, please, and love as best you can, repenting the rest into His fathomless mercy. Then, press on.
Have no anxiety about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, will keep your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. — Phil. 4:6-7
You are so loved, in every moment God explodes in joy that you are. Drink that in, give thanks and be at peace.
There’s a light
A certain kind of light
That never shone on me
I want my life to be lived with you
Lived with you
There’s a way everybody say
To do each and every little thing
But what does it bring
If I ain’t got you, ain’t got? Hey babe
You don’t know what it’s like, baby
You don’t know what it’s like
To love somebody
To love somebody
The way I love you